So... it's really weird when your whole life you wanted something serious with someone, but no one wanted it with you, and then when you just want to date around - nothing too serious- you seem to be surrounded by people that emanate vibes of "COMMITMENT" from them. >.> apparently the older I get, the more people appear to (I say appear 'cause that's just what I think, and it could be paranoia xD)view me more as a person to be serious with (Maybe I'm awesome... maybe it's the baby.. I unno). I suppose that's actually a great thing, but at the moment it's not what I'm after. I need some time to do my own thing. WOO!

You know... maybe I'm just being a bit narcissistic to think that I'm surrounded by peoples that would be serious with me. xD I know for a fact though that I could surround myself quite easily with fuck-buddies... but I am not into that at all... I don't like thinking all I'm desired for is my womanly parts. xD -dances-

Tonight was great. I had lots of "me" time to relax. I did so pantsless.. I love it. I'm pantsless right now. It's great having a place of my own to run around thus. I think my good mood is actually partially a result of the most awful walk ever. Haha... walking up an extremely steep hill that cars have a bit of trouble going up. . . while wearing a 25 lb baby like a backpack is not a fun task... but I think after my initial "I'm DYING" reaction wore off after relaxing, I had more energy than I have for awhile. I suppose I should get out and walk more often...